Last week I took part in this professional symposium. Organized by Canadians, it was a two day event in which peers doing the same thing that I do at the office gathered from all over Melbourne to see some presentations and to network (that is, to kiss ass so we'd have an easier time finding our next job).
The symposium was fairly interesting. For a start, it was two days away from the normal office routine, which is usually good. Matter of fact, it's almost always good in Australia, unlike Israel where being taken away from the office usually implies army reserve duties. More to the point, the symposium was interesting because it showed me just how far back I am on the professional front. I already knew that moving to Australia was like committing professional suicide, but now I also realized that the career path I stuck with since moving to Australia pretty much nailed the seals on my career's coffin.
Up until now I always thought along the lines of "oh, I had to take these job offers since that is all that Australia could offer me and I have to make a living somehow". True, but in the back of my mind I always kept reminiscing on how mighty I used to be back in Israel. That is, how capable I was and how I managed some nice achievements back in my time. Those notions kept my self esteem high, because I was always treating things along the lines of "I'm stooping low now but I know that if opportunity offers itself I can go up again". Thing is, the symposium made me realize I can't. Not anymore.
Let's face it: by now, those mighty achievements back from my Israeli days are more than half of my post university graduation professional career life away. It's not like I can rise to the top quite easily if I wanted to; I won't remember how to do so even if opportunity did present itself.
Opportunity did present itself in the symposium. That is, no one made me an offer, but from what I have heard it became fairly clear that opportunities are there for the taking if one is willing enough. And that, I guess, is where the catch is: try as I may, I am now in a position where I cannot deny that my professional career will not go anywhere purely because I do not want to make the effort to take it anywhere. By now, my career takes second fiddle to my other worldly commitments, and whether I admit it or not job satisfaction plays a very minor fiddle in my life at the moment.
So I might as well admit it. I've become yet another mediocre guy sitting at his office in front of his computer